The degredation.

Despondent.

Sad.

Couldn't work anymore.

Aenemic.

Weak.

Can't find people who will overtly support me.

God is impossible to believe in these circumstances, especially when you have to risk countless murder attempts if you challenge them for their pedophilia and murder cults.

Google, Facebook, Twitter, Gab, maybe Microsoft itself, the Jewish Synagogue, the Muslim Moque, the Christian Temple, all the site of organized pedophilia and murder.

You open you're mouth, you're on a blacklist for life, the only way to stop the constant attempts to murder you is to rape little kids in front of their eyes.

And join them, and then, they will still malpractice on you, steal from you, extort you, drug you, and kill you anyway.

100% of humans are murdered.