I was sick as a child for many times. No one investigated whether the illnesses were causing brain damage.
When I was 10 my older brother tried to rape me.
I had no friends growing up, not my mother or father, not my brothers, not my playmates, none of them showed that they like me and have a caring brain.
Having no friends and recieving nothing but lust and hate from the community, I found myself turning to drugs by 11. After seeing Cheech and Chong, which tempted me that my life would better if I did drugs.
I was seriously bullied and assaulted several times in high school.
My first girlfriends had all already had sex and been raped too, when they were about 14 years old.
I was sexually assaulted and seduced by older, and younger women in high school.
My teacher in high school told us to have sexual relations with 12 year old girls.
One of my co students and his girlriend dissappeared but the cops labelled it a suicide, even though their bodies were never found, at least according to Simon.
I still had no friends.
My priest never helped me out.
I tried to ask questions, but people told me to shut up, or said "It's a mystery."
I wanted to support good causes like justice and peace, but people took me as a communist.
I won the election to head prefect, but the school administration stole the election from me according to the priest, the priest offered me no help.
I was convinced I was going to hell forever by 21. I wanted to have at least one shot at love again, was a mutual seduction with this girl, but she turned out to be only using me, even though she said she loved me.
The CBC radio and my professors and the internet told me my religion said God said it was okay to have sex with little kids.
My brother showed me child porno and got me smokin weed everyday in college. He wanted to be make gay porno with me.
I told my one goodish brother that I had been abused as a child, and he got angry, then it was decreed I was mentally ill.
No one ever apologized to me for being an asshole.
I was given poisonous mushrooms by friends, and felt I had to take them even though I didn't want to . I died . While I was dead aliens came and took me to visit a place in the sky and then beamed me back to my body and I woke up, my friend told me he thought I had been dead.
I was terrified of speaking to any counsellors or univerity professor.
I was given poisonous mushrooms again. This time I went to the hospital. They gave me a drug that is psychoactive for me, and I blacked out for 3 weeks.
They told me I might be bipolar, forced me to take drugs.
I still had no friends. No one, no priest, no doctor, no family member, ever asked me if I had any real friends and if I felt alright and had self confidence and things.
I was forbidden from going to Church by my family.
I went back to school, quickly became paranoid, needed weed, and then got hooked on it, and became even more paranoid.
I was like one of those Japanese youth who can't leave his room almost.
I was hooked on porno , was findout that half the world is ruled by genocidal child rapist cults.
Was imprisoned for attending a meeting for social justice and holding rulers accountable.
Had to leave school, went crazy, was in hospital again for several weeks.
Mom was dying probably, got cancer, girlfriend left me.
Couldn't work, just sat at home, my brother tried to have sex with me (Exposed himself and sexually harassed me).
My brother was still looking at child porno.
Tried to help someone in need, prayed , found a girl who was nearly killed by a man trying to enslave her. My cat died.
I felt I had to smoke some weed again, went out and looked for a dope dealer, met a Jamaican.
Was insulted, harassed, et cetera. Was exposed to extreme racism and sexism.
Was sexually assaulted by a teenage girl, then seduced by other teenage girls pretending to be adults.
Was pushed cocaine, felt I had to do it or they would kil me, slahs I would not have any friends again.
Was homeless at the time. Went psychotic after the cocaine, wanted to blow up the planet except for Canada in some sort of serious way.
Was in hospital again. Came out, couldn't work, got a welfare check, couldn't eat, had to get a credit card. Went 10000 dollars into debt.
Was rick rolled into the Islamic cult, by a guy claiming that Allah forgives people who murder 99 times.
Joined this cult of murderers and rapists.
Had to go see my dyign mother.
She had been only one who ever act like she even remotely my christian friend, of my whole family.
Tried to read her Quran, couldn't. Started hallucinating, seemed like it was perhaps demonic.
Began to almost be friends with one of my older brothers.
My family kept pushing booze my way though.
Prayed for a Job, got a Job. Prayed for friends who could teach me something, met some people.
My father didn't talk to me about almost anything for about 8 years, even though we lived together.
I worked on his company, all he would talk about was work.
I realized my family didn't have any friends, and the Bible and Quran said we were going to hell forever.
I became depressed, started doing cocaine and exstasy, looking at porno.
Got seduced my more women, just for sex apparently, not to be my friend.
One of the women stole my password for my email.
Asked God for signs he existed, got some more, started to remember seeing things like that when I was a kid.
Was being possessessed by demons, was laballed a schizophrenic.
Was robbed.
Met a nice Christian girl, hahah not. This Christian girl stole my papers and my backpack and introduced me to crack heads.
I started making my own crack.
Still had no real friends. No one who cared about me except in some way my old man, my dad, who gave money.
Realized they had added to Quran and were claiming that God was a pedophile pimp who wanted to genocide the world and torture everyone forever. (who is even allowed to talk to Him in their head, I figured)
Became psychotically depressed, became crack head.
Quit crack, went to see my older Brother Leo "(no not the one who tried to rape me, he was in jail for child porno offenses).
Was partying wth Leo, he beat me up and I got beat up and robbed by some black dudes who pretended to be my friends.
Started asking God for more signs, I could tell when we were about to have an Earthquake, I could tell when it was going to rain sometimes , I heard a beautiful song played by the rain on the objects outside .
I began to see the process for taking carbon dioxide out of atmopshere perhaps, and had insight into the treatment of Aids.
Was still being harassed by Satans, or Spirits pretending to be Gods who are not very nice.
I go back home, struggle with addiction, am attacked over and over and over again after I call the cops to try to protect myself.
Still no friends, my dad hates me and tells me I will die because I fucked up.
My brother gets out of jail, is still psychotic, refusing to believe in the Mainstream God, he claims that Satan and God talked t him when he was a kid, but the doctors told him it was a delusion system.
Ugh, to this day, I have no friend,s have nightmares all the time. They tried bombing me, shooting me, stabbbing me, tried to kill my father, tried to rape my kids, (I don't have any but allegedly they were told this kid was my kid and they may have raped it.)."
They kept harassing me, threatening to kill my dad and brothers, they tried beating me up many times, may have tried to kidnap me.
Cops would hang up the phone when I called, and say I was insane to the doctors, who woudl then poison me and put me in a dungeon and declare the whole thing a psychotic episode. They forced me to take drugs which are "Really bad" with cigarettes (even though I am smoker) and "bad" with weed, (even though I a smoker). They gave me drugs whihc make you fat and violent, against children and women and the innocent, (it makes oyu aggressive). I went throuhg a period of being under a torture mass murder threat by all these people and started to feel like joining them and kill all the innocent people who talk to the cops, raping kids, et cetera.
This was, their mental health treatment.
So I become upset. Now Satan is coming to be trying to trick me he is the gods and he is telling me to kill all these people and torture all these people, to rape kids, to kill cops, to sell crack.
I start meeting all these people who say they childrne of Satan and they rape little kids or something.
I overhear child abuse at the daycare across the street, over and over again.
The doctors lied about my reasoning test to claim I was insane.
They are trying to lock me up in prison for life for talkin to the cops.
They tried killing me as far as I saw, at least 10-15 times maybe..
I wrote and told the governor, and they increased the dosage of the evil drugs they have me on.
The drug like make me talk about raping little kids , killing innocent people..
So I like finally start to get along with my immediate family, though to this day they don't show any emotional support for me at alll.
I kind o get some support now for a brief period of time from a friend and I am protected now by some kind of Angels perhaps.
I am no longer being abused as much though they still are trying to make me a fat, unhealthy, evil violent person.
FUCK THE COPS< FUCK THE GOVERMENT. FUCK WHITE PEOPLE, FUCK BLACK PEOPLE, FUCK EVERYONE
WORLD GONNA END I HOPE, no not really I don't want world to end it just I see why these people who don't care and do this sickening stuff about raping kids and torturing and killing abd robbingg the innocent (which is what, 60%-70% of the population)/? Deserve to die and go to hell for a long period of time by God's hand.
Hnnn.
Well anyway.
Patrick Clancy Nick Boake, As a Christian, which has worked better for you, God, or all the psychotropic drugs you have had prescribed to you throughout your life?
