I used to dream of whole families being hung.

That kid there, I'd like to hang him and parents.

I drew a picture of a kid and her parents hanging.

Hehehehehe.  When I was about 11 or 12. 

Teehehehhe I toyed with the idea of going to school with a gun and shooting a bunch of kids.

I fantasized about using nuclear weapons.

Hehehehe.

I figured if the US government got ready to blow up the world, I better get ready to blow up the world too.

In the coming war, I thought, not just 10s of millions but 100s of millions will die.  God Bless America, I thought.


I steeled myself for war, I knew war with the Muslims was coming.  I knew war with China could come, I knew war with Russia could come.

Of course I didn't really want to do things like hang whole families and shoot all the kids in my class, but I felt I had to be emotionally ready to drop nuclear weapons because I believed in M.A.D. (mutually assured destruction). 

I was a MAD man. 

Hehehe.

What I really wanted to do was get justice for sex crimes and political justice for wars and peace and stuff.

I wanted to put people in jail for crimes against others.

Of course I was part of US NATO alliance war policy, I was studying to be a policy maker.  Nuclear War was something I briefly toyed with as a young boy, along with killing my class mates and their families by nuking Toronto. 

I have sometimes felt like Washington and New York and Paris and London should be nuked. 

Then I have felt, NATO should nuke the rest of the world, except Latin America and maybe the Phillipines. 

Just a bit.

I have always corrected my violent thoughts, but I have to admit I entertained them for a few moments.

HAhahaha.