what the experience of being sick taught me

It's pretty good my life. I am fortunate to have a great relationship with my dad, and to have basically been able to pursue my studies and meditations without fear of poverty. I guess you could argue that I am rich in a way, part of the leisure class. Carefully pursuing knowledge and fortunes, doing what I can to help out the poor and weak, the innocent, making my way happily, especially in the past couple years I have been very happy. Not having to work, and being able to work only on my studies and my dreams, this obsession disoder, means that I am effectively being aided by my family and pursuing dreams which could make me quite prosperous one day. I have quite the celebrations of my life which I have sometimes thanked God for profusely. I admit the best thanks for God is helping out. Too bad that false demon has come and tried to steer me away from the loving way. But tonight I am celebrating again and I will thank God and the others for it. Thank God and thank my family, thank the workers who slaved to bring me my food and my party materials. I am speaking against the evil ones and getting kicked off internet sites as a "snitch." Being an outspoken man of the justice is difficult sometimes, people have threatened me and attacked me, as I have written on this blog. Nevertheless, we must fight on. My life experience and studies have informed me that there are a fair number of people who are quite awful, taking away freedom and oppressing people, robbing and raping and even killing them. Threats against your family are uttered, threats against your children. It is quite awful having your parents, siblings, and children threatened. Working on the justice side, you become acutely aware that there are enough criminals who are wannabbe murderers and child abusers. Neglected children are often suffering mental illness and can be vulnerable to drugs pushers and pimps. The parents who don't tell their kids the important facts about life and teach them to act properly, they are abusing their kids. Being a kid from that kind of family can be very frustating, you might be molested by an older sibling, even more than once, addicted to drugs, by the time you reach adulthood. We have to intervene with people like that to make sure they don't fall down too hard and become monsters, like rapists who are attempting to be killers. We have social responsibilities to make sure no children are abused and abandoned, both to please the Lord and to make our nations stronger. People acting like they are devils could maybe deserve to die. Creating the impression that there are more demonic people than there really are is bad, and people doing that some what because they are thinking it is some kind of "good" crime strategy are sociopaths. They at least need to be under mental health treatment. This means doing something. We are required to help the least of our people, this means taking these sociopaths and either reforming them or removing them from our society. A few of them do maybe deserve to die. Criminals who play the rapist and murderer to "get away" with robbing people are hurting themselves. The Lord is punishing them. They are making it harder for the police to catch the real rapists and murderers. Saying you murder people is like intimidation, mischeif, and perhaps even treachery. Perhaps only the government should kill people, people who are at war with us, trying to severely hurt us and kill us. It could be that sometimes the government has to do these things because the situation so bad with someone that they are going to kill people who are adding a lot to society, or people who are very innocent, like good mothers and even children. These people could need to die before they do that, or be put in the confinement. The wicked really do attack the upright, and the poor and sick. They often try to enslave them, partially, or fully, and they attack them with weapons for attempting to call the police, for being good, for speaking out. The David of the Bible didn't lie about that. Prayers can be answered, this too is a fact. I have seen a large number of my prayers answered, including spectacular prayers like asking for someone about to attack me to have a seizure, and asking for being protected in a fight by lights and splitting into ten people. At least this is what seems to have happened with me. I asked for the people attacking me to be discplined, learn they could go to hell for murder, they had bad karma, the ones who I was observing closely had the problems I asked them to have generally, like losing their driver's license, being in a car crash, being fired from their job, their spouse leaving them, having mental issues, shooting each other instead of me. An advantage the righteous and good people is that the wicked often can't stand each other. They are keen to attack one another not only the righteous. They can't help themselves, the insults they have to put up with, the injustices from other wicked people, it makes them bitter and angry. The good people on the otherhand please one another, they make each other happy and help each other to be smarter. It is indeed possible that good people can have an advantage in battle, at least sometimes. Being sick is not always such a bad thing, it can give you time to think and study. Sometimes you notice things other people aren't. Like for example the fact a lot of people aren't able to help their kids or don't want to or something. Their kids are drifting, into sex and drugs abuse, even serious crime. The Bible says if you teach the kids properly, they will do it all their lives, even when they are old. The believers have to try that. We should do an experiment, try to teach the kids to behave properly and think properly, and see what happens. One of the things school doesn't do is teach you to think properly, that is, humbly. People pontificate as if they were the messiah himself, preaching their thoughts as true facts, even when they are at best guesses into what is. I see it all the time on facebook and even in the mainstream media. People are not humble enough, they could be classed perhaps as delusional or arrogant, quick to judge, having obsessive thought. We can try to do things better, that is what Jesus asked us to do in the Bible. Do it better, for the sake of the kids. People acted (some of them) like their kids were so priviledged, but kids were often let to stray into evil situations and problems, ignorant of how to reach the heavenly conduct or most effective conduct. 30% of high school kids admit smoking weed in surveys in BC, but my intelligence gathering indicates the number is really higher. Intelligence indicates that a lot more than 1% of people are on drugs like cocaine and meth, a lot more. It's very common to see people over 17 under 50 doing those things. There's a fair number of sociopaths running around running mass murder threats and serious fucking around, like making it look like they are trying to kill you, threatening your kids or girlfriend or wife. What to do with them? We should exile them somewhere they can do productive work, like working in a mine or forestry or farming, away from society and guided with good culture and perhaps some mental health help. We need to organize the kids and give them help to combat drugs, sex problems, and serious crime. I have thought long and hard about how to make a better life for my kids, a life that would help them avoid these problems, and I have concluded that the goverment and the churches have to do this organization thing, society has to intervene to help the kids to be strong against people aggressing their peace. I am a firm believer that force should be used to deter abuses against children and women, the innocent and people's loved ones. People threatening to hurt your family or kill it should be like enslaved and exiled to hostile territory to work very hard for their victims and society in general. I don't know how far we can get, it seems I am being blocked from making popularity for my ideas by people who strongly disagree, who might be quite bad people. I don't know what percentage of people are bad people, I don't believe it's everyone but I find I am one of the few people who will speak for his complete set of positive ideas to help us have better, more wholesome lives. People are terrified of these demons, not understanding that if they are really good all their lives, they will probably survive them. Recall that Jesus dissed the apostles as wicked, and may have chosen them specifically to bring them to justice while still saving them. An ordinary very good person probably isn't going to go to jail or get killed, though it could happen sometimes. Despite the risk we have a duty to fulfill to Love itself, and our communities and nations, world et cetera, to make life better here, less of a trauma. The bad people are really being punished, believe it. We should discipline them for their own benefit, to guide them out of this hell on earth they are at least it seems, quite often experiencing. Talk to your missionaries and see how good the life of child abusing wannabee murderers or rapists is. See the life of hard drugs dealers and slave traffickers. Their lives are in my intelligence gathering, inundated with problems and danger. The dark side does not lead to happiness and sucess, it leads to severe issues with your mind and body, and major problems with other people. I have seen it in people I saw in my missions, and when I fell somewhat to the evil side I had severe issues myself. The hell's angels could be classed as a terrorist organization. They have said to me that they kill people for talking about religion with them, and claim that they kill 10 people for everyone of them killed, and kill people for hitting them, and they threaten to kill parents and rape children over seriously unjust issues. I have ministered to them while praying for them, and seen the calamities that strike them. They are beaten up, robbed, fired often, spouses leave them, they are diseased, they get in car crashes, they get shot and stabbed. It is not worth it to be on the bad side. Yes I have tried to minister to gangsters who live in my neighborhoods. I have seen their problems. Their problems are severe. They are not only on the run from the cops, they are diseased perhaps as the Book says by God himself, and are on the run from victims and competing criminals. They have bad luck, accidents and strife with their "friends". In fact it is not uncommon for their "friends" to severely hurt them or even kill them. I haven't seen what happens to the evil side when it is older, perhaps it is ultimately taken into captivity or slavery by it's enemies. I have known some older people who didn't seem particularly good, and they seemed like mentally ill and alcoholic and paranoid in particular, as well as delusional. They got poorer as they got older and had psychotic issues, were suffering violence, and were plotting holocausts. It seemed something they might have desired to send a final message to the Earth, of extreme violence and injustice. I wonder how many people are in an "evil" cult or gang nowadays... I think a lot of people stupidly signed up for that stuff. Being sick has allowed me to learn a lot about life and society and history. I feel if I keep being sick and reading and thinking I will reach the status of a heroic scholar. I have one professor who tells me I am a scholar and very intelligent. I am grateful for my life, which hasn't been painful, but in fact has been pleasant for the vast majority of it. I think I have helped some people by being kind to them, and I have admittedly fought injustice. I have helped my family I think to be on better terms with each other again. I am happy now in my life, the vast majority of time, the music generally sounds very nice and I am happy to help out my dad's company when he asks me to. The devil be damned! Sick people can contribute a lot to society and should be helped to contribute as much as they can. Sickness can lead to deep introspection and reflection, which can lead to the cultivation of better morals and conduct. This is perhaps the reason why God created illness, to help families to reach better levels of development, with sick people learning about the wrongs in the family and raising the family and community up to a higher standing.