I thought I would be an evil man and go to hell forever, so I prepared to Jump, the Alien Lords saved me?

I learned I would become evil in some way.

I was disgusted.

I thought I'd rather take my life than be that way.

Now I went to Jump from the ledge, and I went there, and there was a warning before I went, the mind said, "The Pope said you go to hell for committing suicide." 

I stood there on the balcony, and planned to do it, and then I recalled my mom and my dad, and I thought, maybe I'll just go up on the ledge as a cat, and I went up on the railing and stood there, and thought of jumping, it looked far, and I thought, perhaps not far enough and I planned to survive, thinking of my parents.

Then I went inside, put on Roma Music and saw A great Alien Ship landing in the desert.