My mother lol she was wild.

One of the first messages my mother told me, was "they are going to lock you up and throw away the key." 

My mother didn't explain who they were, but I suppose it was her idea of wising me up. 

So when I could understand them, I spend my evenings watching crime, shows, figuring out how to not get thrown in jail.

LOL

My mom also told me "Have you heard of going to hell in a handbasket?" 

This was all around the time I was 6, when my mom was telling me this.  I figured I'd better believe in God now, before they all kill me and lock me away in hell for life!

So I tried to believe in everything they told me at Church, sure, I believed it.

Damn.

What other positive messages did my mother send me ?  (I say positive sarcastically.)

I think one thing she told me was "don't throw the baby out with the bathwater." Okay don't murder babies, thanks Mom.

Well, that was interesting.

My mom used to take me out to lunch.  She told me "There's no such thing as a free lunch, Nick."

So I guess I figured at had to do well at school, then get a job making a 6 figure income.

Eventually all passion was sucked out of me, by something.  Perhaps marijuana, perhaps global affairs, perhaps fevers, perhaps boredom itself.  I became paranoid to leave the apartment and go to school.

I had a nervous breakdown after taking mushrooms, then I had another when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and my girlfriend left me.

I had been still getting good grades in school despite only attending 15% of the classes...  but eventually it was too much, my nervous breakdown came at the end of the term and I wasn't able to finish the term and then I simply left university behind.

It was a bad showing.

I had begun to realize my parents had been or were a bit defficient in their treatment of me.  The realization that I wasn't alone but then many many kids had defficient parenting was begining to dawn on me as well.

It was through relationships with women that I learned my parents had not fully cared about me properly.  Also through having my first good friends.  Good friends and lovers taught me that the parents hadn't really taken care of us properly.

So I began a long journey, of learning and living, travelling and hustling.

I wound up living around Various spots in North America, big and small cities. 

I researched broadly, learning more about life and academic subjects.

Eventually I had the idea for helping parents to do a better job.  I imagined an app that would remind parents to talk to their kids about their lives, and show them how to give good advice to their kids.  For parents who really didn't want to abuse their kids.

I do this for my mother, because as an educator and caring person, she wanted to provide for me what she didn't get as a kid, so I am trying to provide what I didn't get for the next generation.